It’s weird whenever you want to rant about something, but you make logic of it as you’re blogging,
You no longer have anything to ramble about so you just backspace through everything, and go back to wishing you could feel passionately towards something.
It’s hard going through writers block, even though the world around you has been extremely dramatic, and you feel so much_too much, at once.
Zach has taught me to stop analyzing my feelings and just FEEL what is in the moment. (Something i’ve had a terribly difficult time doing all of my life)
and to stop questioning WHY, all of the damn time.
Sometimes i dig so damn much because i absolutely despise not knowing why.
I’ve been dealing with instability all too much lately.
Trying to form some sort of spirituality, as ive been battling between reason and religion.
I’m a firm believer that the mind is all too powerful, but i’m also extremely spiritual.
My life has been full of a playlist consisting of the title “Too Much Estrogen”, Wine Black N Milds , Sexual Cravings, Self Control/Self Esteem/Self Image/Self Destructing issues, Trying to find a place to live and be happy, and falling in love all at the same time.
You’d think i was sad, but being sad is okay to me, because everything passes, and we move on. We learn from our tears and our anger. I embrace any emotion with open arms because it’s a beautiful thing to say that you’ve felt the pain and weakness that struggle can cause. It builds character, wisdom, strength and a solid foundation.
I’m regressing, and progressing all at once. Always different, always the same. Everything is a learning experience and i will come out more knowledgeable if i fuck up, like i always have. I have my back, and plenty of others have it too.
I cant help but to be positive about the outcome. I am a Sagittarius, you know.
-MD
